I hear a nasty scratch and look at the hardwood floors in horror. Jak looks up at me sheepishly as he stops moving the couch. I take a deep breath in and know that it is just floors and we can always refinish the floors down the line.

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We lifted the couch and continue to re-arrange it.... 7 different times. We play a game of Tetris to figure out how to fit this couch that has a "cuddler" side to it that Jak fell in love with 4 years ago in a small space.

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After an hour of furniture Tetris we figure out how to best arrange the awkwardly shaped couch into the small space that was not meant to the the living room.

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Our son smiled up at us. While Jak and I had played Tetris, our son was on the couch enjoying the ride the entire time. I look at Jak, hug him, kiss him and say, "This has been so much fun!"

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Now, for anyone who knows me personally, I'm not good at cleaning and organizing. It's truly been a weakness and I'm trying to do better each and every day.

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While I truly suck at cleaning and re-arranging, taking time to do this not only as a couple but as a family was fun!

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Not because it was easy (it wasn't - it was actually exhausting).

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Not because it was something we wanted to do (it wasn't - we would have kept the layout as is, but our new family needs instigated the need to re-arrange).

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We had fun because we all did it together, acted like a team, listened to each idea we had on how we wanted to arrange the furniture, and worked together to accomplish the goal.

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I can tell you that had Jak and I not done our recovery work in the beginning we wouldn't be here - over 7 years later - laughing and enjoying cleaning/re-arranging the house furniture on a Sunday.

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In fact, I know there wouldn't be an us if he hadn't committed to his own recovery work.

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What had me stay was that he never gave up and kept trying.

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Chloe, my co-coach, has the mentality "as long as he is trying, I'm staying," and it stuck with me.

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Recovery isn't linear, isn't easy, and isn't fast.

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It's ups and downs, challenging at times, and depending on each person's unique circumstances, it can take a while to feel truly stable and confident in your recovery journey.

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But, let me tell you, it's worth it.

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Knowing that Jak and I committed to ourselves, each other, and our family so that we could get to the result of laughing off scratching the floors versus being in a full on fight is amazing.

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The little things that drove us mad we now appreciate about each other. Through recovery we learned to love ourselves as well as each other in new ways.

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To know that we can enjoy life and be like a "normal" couple is such a relief.

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Back in the beginning when we both felt like our world was shattered and over, we never felt like a normal couple.

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We never felt like we could get back to any sense of normalcy.

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We really didn't know how to get to a healthy and connected "us."

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But through trial and error, commitment, and outside help, we did make it.

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And we continue to make it each day.

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My personal belief is that everyone has the ability to recover.

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However, not everyone will choose to recover.

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Recovery is a choice.

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It's a choice that you make each and every day you move forward.

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As Demi Lovato famously said recovery doesn't have a day off.

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It's true, each day, we make thousands of choices all the time. Some we don't even think about - but they're still choices.

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So as you enter this upcoming week, reflect on the choices you make each and every day.

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Are they helping recovery or are they harming recovery?

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It's a good question to come back to whenever you're in doubt.

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Always here for you when you're ready to add to your recovery team,

Savvy Esposito

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